and my matthew is oober sick... i feel terrible... from what it sounds like, he has what i had a few weeks ago. The way i felt i would never, EVER wish it upon even my worsttttt enemy... and the fact that he's going through it breaks my heart. I hate when my matty is sick. He's always the healthy one in the relationship. :[
butttt--ON THE BRIGHT SIDE OF THINGS!!!
God has been SOO good to me. Sooooo faithful. My prayers are being answered in bundles and it amazes me at how the combination of prayer, obedience, and patience all work together. I wrote a longggg blog about two effects of prayer... how we pray and ask FOR things, but we never ask for DIRECTION in things...
i wrote that blog because i had a revelation, and heard many heart moving testimonies from people at church, with that combination. When i FINALLY decided to stop trying to take everything on my own... i not only became so much happier and peaceful... but i could see the work was doing when i finally gave it over and surrendered it all to Him....
When i first started this blog i was in a mess of worries and stressful situations... and even though i kept telling myself i needed to just trust the Lord, its hard to do that when you dont give your time to Him, when you dont actually get on your knees and not only beg Him to forgive you for being such a stubborn sinful fool, but to also really hear Him out.
I did that last week... and ive been doing that ever since. All i can say is... miracles, Miracles, MIRACLES.
Im not going to go into the depth of my family issues... but all i know is He is doing such amazing work there that when i look for Jesus in the midst of it all, all i can do is cry and be so thankful when i see how much He is really there.
BUT I WILL GO INTO MY CAREER SITUATION!! I was so exhausted sitting and thinking about what i was going to do, who i could really trust, where was i going to go with my education... and again, GOD IS SO FRIGGING FAITHFUL THAT I COULD SCREAM! (which i could, if my parents werent so exhausted from their trip) Sooooo my parents own a restaurant which is next door to one of the biggest modeling agencies in the tri-state area (aside from NYC obviously.) The president of the modeling agency is also the president of the beauty school i attended, and more than that-- he has been a very close friend of the family since i was 6. Ever hear of a show called "What NOT to Wear?" Well the stylist for that show is the internationally known stylist/educator/razor extrodinair!/the head kahuna of the hair styling world...Nick Arrojo. Nick has a huge salon/school in NYC. People work YEARSSS to work under Nick. Well Mr. President of the modeling agency/school/family friend is really good friends with Mr. Arrojo. For months our friend has been talking me up telling me that he was going to get me there... and for months i waited and trusted his word. And i didnt see/hear anything.... I started freaking out.. even crying.. and for some retarded reason, i was scared to approach him about the situation, or even take it into my own hands. To me, if i went after it, i wasnt trusting God and letting Him do the work--HAHAHAHAHA. Can we all just join together...and then point & laugh in my silly lil asian face?? Well like i said, i finally PRAYED ABOUT IT, i finally SPENT TIME TALKING TO GOD ABOUT IT... and He gave me the strength, and the boldness to finally write some emails, and call the damn friend and get things moving...
here i am... a little over a week later... signed up for 4 seperate advanced training classes with AMAZING stylists... ANDDDDD ((drum roll please)) and interview with Nick Arrojo HIMSELF.
I make the call tomorrow to officially set everything up... but all is not done yet. I dont want to speak too soon.. but all i know is, that handing it ALL to the Lord really does make a difference... and when you are bold and go after the things you want... ONLY THAN will things happen. Sitting back and waiting for the call wont happen... sometimes you have to take that Go given strength and put it to work! So if you are sitting there contemplating ANYTHING... STOP CONTEMPLATING! The world is yours to grab and take hold... whatever should be yours--WILL BE YOURS. You just have to trust God, and take a pure leap of faith. He has promised you so many things... but if you dont want to take advantage of those promises, you have no one to blame but yourself.
So here i am... taking hold of my dreams and praising Jesus for His strength to do so, and for His spirit to guide my every step.
Now all i have to do is not only get His guidance... BUT STOP BEING SUCH A WIMP AND FOLLOW WHAT HE TELLS ME! In a matter of A WEEK... i listened, i obeyed... and here i am pretty much at the doorstep of my dreams.
Keep praying for those who have kept me in their prayers, because now that i got the interview.. comes the hard part... GETTING THE JOB.
But this i most definitely know... that if it was meant for me... God will supply me with all the right tools to get what He has planned for me to have.
Thank you for your prayers... KEEP PRAYING!!
LoveLoveLove,
Stace.
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