Short and Sweet*

(I took this picture on MY PHONE at central park in strawberry fields. <3)

Im so terrible at keeping up with this thing! Maybe because part of me i crazy busy running around trying to start my career, and maybe there's another part of me that doesn't think anyone reads this silly thing, and so i don't care all that much to update it. I decided to get over both of these things because i dont need readers to write, and i dont need all that much time to sit and just update this because its EXTREMELY fun for me to go back and read what i wrote a couple months ago. :)

So i moved into my apartment in NYC and i am LOVING the east village! Lots of cool people, lots of cool restaurants, lots of cool shops, and it doesn't hurt to live a 10 min walk from soho and chinatown. ;) I handed out about 23908402983 resumes and i've gotten call backs/interviews with a couple... and the two i narrowed it down to are Cutler Salon and Arrojo Studio! (the two places that i've been drawn towards for months now, andddd ironically, they are rival salons.) I have my final interview processes this week so i'll know where i get hired, and if in the case i get hired at both-- I am almost 100% positive that i'm going to be joining the Cutler Salon team. Not to say that Arrojo Studio is worse than Cutler, but more so, Cutler seems to fit me and my vision for where i want to be 10 years from now. Not to mention, i feel like God has reallllllllly been pulling me towards Cutler since i heard about it.... and when you are in doubt with anything... tuck away all the glitz&glam and just go with what God has for you. Whenever i was confused or worried... i took the way that God was leading me, and as scary as it seemed at first--it always turned out to be better than anything i would have ever dreamed in the first place (and more!) 

I am extremely excited for my 21st birthday coming up next week! (June 16!!) I cant believe how the past 21 years has flown by. It still feels like yesterday that i was celebrating my 6th birthday at Chucky Cheeses where my big brother almost got in a fight with the guy dressed up Mr. Chucky Cheese himself! ohhh, the good times. <3

A few of my friends are heading up to the city to come visit me for a couple days this week... which is always a good time! I am so blessed to have such amazing people in my life. To love me when I'm at my worst, to encourage me when i am down, to pray for me when i need spiritual strength and healing, to laugh at me when i'm a goof (which is pretty much 99.9% of the time!), to cry with me when i feel like the world is falling apart before my eyes, or to just sit and drink some tea with me while enjoying a good book! In the Bible it describes how brothers and sisters in Christ do these things together, that God gives us these special people to fellowship with, to love, to have community with... and the main reason is because in each one of us is a little piece of God, a little piece of Christ right there, and when we love eachother, spend time together, laugh together, cry together, its us spending time with that little Christ in all of us. 

I have nothing more to say... except-- its so breathtaking to think of all the little Christs God has put in my life... How am i so blessed?

Love, love, love, LOVE--

Stace

I said i want you, exactly like i used to<3

CAN I SAY THAT IVE BEEN WITH KINGS OF LEON LATELY??

--If you dont have the latest CD... i HIGHLY recommend going out and INVESTING IN IT--NOTTT DOWNLOADING IT. Lets not steal from the hardworking talented musicians out there. We are FANS... not THIEVES. The more you purchase the awesomeness which is music, the more music is made--comprende? :)

Now moving on to my little remark about illegal piracy of music... WOW ITS BEEN A WHILE SINCE IVE UPDATE THIS THING!! Its been well over a month... and a well over amount of things have happened in my life... I feel like this is an everyday thing (and i pray it continues to be an everyday thing)... God has blessed me so much, has taught me so much, has pulled me through when i thought i couldnt be pushed/pulled/kicked/dragged/etc through anymore. He has proven to be, and continues to be so faithful, so unfailing, so LOVING, and i dont even know where to start to thank Him. All i know is this--that i couldnt be more grateful for this Savior i have, for this God who laid His life down for me, who came back to life just to have a personal relationship with me, who gives me more than i deserve, who puts me through the fire to teach me and make me stronger but ultimately--for a God to love me so unconditionally that it absolutely makes NO sense. Thank you Jesus, thank you so much.

Today was matthew's 20th birthday, and we were out all day celebrating--meaning im tired. Buttttt i figured it has been so long that i would give you readers a brief update of my life...

Well I PASSED MY STATE BOARDS!! So i am officially a licensed cosmetologist in the state of PA. I got a friggin' 98%!!! If THATS not God, IONO WHAT IS!! I alsooooo got an apartment in East Village...which was another God situation which i cant even being to explain... butttt with everything falling into place, i am moving to NYC this coming monday...

So much has happened, I went to Boston--had an amazing/refreshing time with Dave and Emma... did a photoshoot--which was one of the greatest learning experiences to date... spoke to Nick Arrojo who wants me to come in for an interview a.s.a.p.... and hosted a yard sale for my youth group that was so successful that i couldnt thank God enough for the funds He helped provide to make this youth road trip possible...

I guess my main point through this entire entry is to never stop thanking God for EVERYTHING you have in your life. Its so simple to lose track of the good, and focus on all the things that need to be done, that didnt get done, or doesnt look like will ever get done. Dont stress, dont worry, dont freak out--take a breath, do a silly dance, blast your favorite song, and lay in the grass under the warm sun-- Because its in the time that we step aside and just remember the simple things of life that we see how much God is REALLY there. How no matter the circumstances in which we find ourselves in or the situation of where life has called you--God still has given you enough strength to recollect your thoughts and just smile at the mere thought of His goodness and all the things you DO have. 

I pray you never take things for granted. I pray you never forget how much God loves you. I pray that no matter how far you have fallen, no matter how fast you want to run in the opposite direction of Him, that when you are ready to turn around and go back to the place you have come from--that God will be there waiting for you, smiling, even singing, for your return. 

How blessed are we to have such a God? To WANT to love us, to WANT to forgive us, to WANT to have a personal and intimate relationship with us even when we dont deserve or want it too? Even as a Christian, i dont understand it, but all i know is--i hope i NEVER take THAT for granted.

Love

--Stace Face

all we want is to be enough, all we want is to feel loved.

TODAY WAS THE FIRST DAY THAT I WOKE UP BEFORE 9:30 ON MY OWN--WITHOUT AN ALARM CLOCK--SINCE SCHOOL HAS BEEN OVER!!!

i feel pretty damn awesome right now! :)

sooo heres a lil update on the wonderful life that God has blessed me with!

Well i sent my resume out to arrojo almost two weeks ago... and heard nothing. at all. 

People think i am mad/upset...or something negative... but yet again, God has revealed to me that things will all fall into place in HIS time... not my own...

I never really felt 100% on the whole arrojo thing, not to say i am not interested anymore--BC I DEFINITELY AM! But theres also other places i can work... and the most important thing to me isnt money, isnt opportunity, or even what I WANT... the MOST important thing to me for everything i do, and for every aspect of my life, is that what i do, where i go--is where God wants me. I cant stress enough at how perfect His plan is, at how perfect His timing is, at how much He loves me (and all of you, in that case) that He would never send me somewhere that was bad for me, or not a part of the plan He has for my life. And the more i dwell in His perfectness... i feel more and more settled about it all.

For the past few months i had this personal "deadline" that i wanted to reach. Kind of my goal plan that i needed to accomplish and i was starting to freak out because it was being pushed back further and further. But than i remembered how silly i sounded... how could i try to play God and act like i knew how everything was gonna fall together--let alone WHEN they would fall together. Im so goofy sometimes. lol

But heres some more cool news... God's guidance coming in a strange package maybe. Funny how He does that sometimes lol...

Sooo i was crying the one night, freaking out, to my hair stylist--well mentor really. Matthew has been close friends to the family since i was about 13... and he also a very established and internationally known in the industry. His work has been featured in many fashion week shows, magazines, and other forms of editorial work... not to mention he, himself, has been featured in numbers of different magazines to recognize him and his accomplishments in the industry... He was telling me not to put all my eggs in one basket... and he even suggested this salon called Cutler's salon (opened by renowned redken stylist Rodney Cutler) in soho... He has worked with Rodney many times for fashion week in NYC and Matthew's boss, Patrick McIvor worked for Rodney... So they are hooking me up with an interview hopefully... and a few nights later i received an e-mail from my friend dave who moved up to NYC with his gf to pursue his career... and in the e-mail, he answered alllll the question's ive been praying about (not to mention, i didnt even ask dave any of the questions that he just answered anyways! CRAZY, RIGHT?) and alsooooo Dave told me that he highly recommended that i checked out Cutler Salon...AND I NEVER EVEN TOLD HIM THAT MATT WAS WORKING ON GETTING ME IN THERE! So a little confirmation from God??? Maybe... but i suppose we'll see...

There's a lot of stuff going on with my extended family that i am pretty much in the middle and doing God's work in... and when i think back and realize that if i really had gone through with everything in MY timeline... i wouldnt have been home to be the Christ light in this situation, something terrible couldve already happened... but since everything was pushed back, i was here, i was able to do the things God needed me to do... and THAT is a miracle in itself.

It just shows that patience and trust and love all work together... you cant be one without the other... And God is all these things... 

So i'm taking one day at a time... doing the things He wants me to do in THAT day, and not worry bout tomorrow or yesterday...

Yesterday is gone, so forget about it

Tomorrow is NEVER promised to us

Today is all we have... today is the day that i live because i may never get another.

Ppl refer to today at the present... and it truly is a gift. Love it, thank God for it, and seek His presence in it with every last breath you take. You never know, before you take your next breath, you may be in Heaven before Him.

Love you.

Stace

I NEED TO STOP STRESSING!

81 Things You Probably Didn't Know Until You Read This:

What Color Is Your Tooth brush ?
pink and white


Name One Person That Made You Smile Today ?
matthew<33


What Were You Doing At 8 Am This Morning?
passssed out.


What Were You Doing 45 Minutes Ago?
on the phone with ta tinaaa... and still am. lol


What Is Your Favorite Candy?
reeses! anythingggg reeses!


What's the last thing you said out loud?
umm something i said to tina on the phone lol


What Is The Best Ice Cream Flavor?
cold stone!! or marble slab... combos that contain nuts, cinnamon, or oreas is yummy!


What Was The Last Thing You Had To Drink ?
a pomegranate martini lol


What Is The Longest You Have Gone Without Sleeping?
umm like over 48 hours.... it wasnt fun. i felt so sick.


Have You Ever Made A Promise You'd Die To Keep?
When i promised to live my life FOR GOD... i would die to keep that promise... after all-- He was crucified, died, and rose again for me.


Have You Bought Any New Clothing Items This Week?
not this week! i'm proud of myself! :]


The Last Sporting Event You Watched?
hahahaha... GOOOOD QUESTION!


What Is Your Favorite Flavor Of Popcorn
umm butterrrrry... and then i put garlic powder, parmesan cheese, and fresh ground pepper on it. yupp--stinky breath does occur after consuming this.


Who Is The Last Person You Sent A Message On Facebook?
miss rodriguez


Ever Go Camping?
yep! the kerns have turned me into an official camper!


Do You Take Vitamins Daily ?
nope... i prob should start tho lol


Do You Go To Church Every Sunday?
yep! and every wednesday!


You Drink Your Soda With A Straw ?
yup... but i rarellyyyyy drink soda.


What Did Your Last Text Message Say?
ummm dont remember lol


What Are You Doing Tomorrow?
gym, coloring my sister's hair, taking my mom to the dr's, hanging out with my matthew<33


Where Is Your Dad?
sleeping lol


Look To Your Left, What Do you see?
my window.


What Color Is Your Watch ?
i dont wear a watch


What Do You Think Of When You Hear Australia?
dan young from this providence lol


What did you do yesterday?
ummm went running, matthew took me on a romantic dinner date, and then went to my aunt's house to spend time with family


Do You Go In At A Fast Food Place Or Just Hit The Drive Thru?
drive thru.


What Is Your Favorite Number?
umm 3, 7, 9, 25


Who's The Last Person You Talked To On The Phone?
tina... still on the phone with her


Any Plans Today ?
sleep after this lol


Biggest Annoyance In Your Life Right Now?
finding a job in nyc


Last Song Listened To?
ummm im pretty sure the cab was playing before someone called me

Can You Say The Alphabet Backwards?
if i think REALLY hard lol


Do You Have A Maid Service Clean Your House ?
uhhh no. lol

Favorite Pair Of Shoes You Wear All The Time?
ummm my moccasin boots


Are You Jealous Of Anyone?
nope.


Is Anyone Jealous Of You?
lol sure!


Do you love anyone?
my jesus, my matthew, my family, and everyone else i possibly can!


What Do You Usually Do During The Day?
go running, read, pray, make phone calls/write emails.


Do You Hate Anyone That You Know Right Now?
i dont hate anyone. even if you do something terrible to me--i believe that two wrongs DO NOT make a right... so i'll try to kill you with kindness is anything


Do You Use The Word 'hello' Daily ?
not really...i usually say "HIIII!"


Do You Like Cats?
not really... but i like el gato and matt's cats lol


Have You Ever Been To Six Flags ?
nope


How Did You Get Your Worst Scars ?
i dont really have any bad scars.... i have one noticeable scar on my ankle from getting my ankle caught in a swinging bench back in taiwan when i was like 3 lol


Last Cd Played?
the new this providence cd


Last Time You Cried ?
last night.


Have You Ever Slept Until 1pm?
yeppppp


List Four People You Tell Pretty Much Anything To?
jesus

tina

my sister

my mom


List Three Favorite Colors/ shades:
purple

pink

teal/turquoise 

Laughed Until You Cried :
yep lol its the best!


Gay Marriage?
love is all you need... and people shouldnt tell you who you can and cannot love... 


Lowering The Drinking Age?
until americans can learn how to HANDLE THEIR DAMN ALCOHOL... i don't think it should change... not that it really matters anyways since everyone somehow someway drinks before they're legal


Who Are The Best Huggers That You Know?
darion, drew, marshal from the cab, zack (panics security dude), and ofcourse my matthew<33


Do You Believe In Love At First Sight ?
lust and love are very diferent things... i dont believe you can simply look at a person and fall inlove with them... you just fall inlove with their physical aspects... but i do believe that you can open a door to love at first sight...


Is There Something You Want To Tell Someone?
theres a lot i want to tell to a lot of different ppl


Would You Kiss Anyone On Your Top Friends?
i kiss my matthew pretty much every other day when i see him lol


How Many Kids Do You Want To Have?
umm 2-3 of my own... and i want to adopt 1 or 2


Do You Want To Change Your Name?
nope... thats the ONLY thing i dont look forward to when i get married


Last Time You Saw Your Father?
umm like 10 mins before i started this lol


What Time Did You Wake Up Today ?
umm like 11:30ish??


How Old Are You?
20... 21 in june


What Were You Doing At Midnight Last Night ?
umm sitting at my aunts house


What Is Your Favorite Thing In Your Room?
my beddddd, my laptop, and my guitarrr


Where Is Your Best Friend Right Now?
at home talking to me on the phone lol

Even after all my mistakes--You came thru.

Im not sure how many ppl actually stop by and read this... let alone if anyone stops by and reads this at all..

BUT JUST INCASE THERE ARE PPL WHO CARE ENOUGH ABOUT THIS GOOFY LIL GIRL AND THE GOOFY THINGS SHE WRITES ABOUT--SORRY I HAVENT UPDATED!

There are LOTS going on right now... AND IM SO EXCITED TO SEE WHERE IT ALL LEADS. 

Some stuff is def, some stuff isnt so set in stone... but regardless of what works out and doesnt work out--i know the ultimate result will be perfect, bc thats just how God works. :) His plan is never short of perfect.

God is so good... continuing to bless me with more and more things that i don't deserve.... but making me praise Him even more... which is something He more than deserves.

As soon as i know definitely what will be going on with me moving to NYC... i'll let YOU know. ;)

Check back, i'll keep ya posted.

Loveeeee,

Stace-Face

Great is thy faithfulness.

Its friday night...

and my matthew is oober sick... i feel terrible... from what it sounds like, he has what i had a few weeks ago. The way i felt i would never, EVER wish it upon even my worsttttt enemy... and the fact that he's going through it breaks my heart. I hate when my matty is sick. He's always the healthy one in the relationship. :[

butttt--ON THE BRIGHT SIDE OF THINGS!!!

God has been SOO good to me. Sooooo faithful. My prayers are being answered in bundles and it amazes me at how the combination of prayer, obedience, and patience all work together. I wrote a longggg blog about two effects of prayer... how we pray and ask FOR things, but we never ask for DIRECTION in things...

i wrote that blog because i had a revelation, and heard many heart moving testimonies from people at church, with that combination. When i FINALLY decided to stop trying to take everything on my own... i not only became so much happier and peaceful... but i could see the work was doing when i finally gave it over and surrendered it all to Him....

When i first started this blog i was in a mess of worries and stressful situations... and even though i kept telling myself i needed to just trust the Lord, its hard to do that when you dont give your time to Him, when you dont actually get on your knees and not only beg Him to forgive you for being such a stubborn sinful fool, but to also really hear Him out.

I did that last week... and ive been doing that ever since. All i can say is... miracles, Miracles, MIRACLES. 

Im not going to go into the depth of my family issues... but all i know is He is doing such amazing work there that when i look for Jesus in the midst of it all, all i can do is cry and be so thankful when i see how much He is really there.

BUT I WILL GO INTO MY CAREER SITUATION!! I was so exhausted sitting and thinking about what i was going to do, who i could really trust, where was i going to go with my education... and again, GOD IS SO FRIGGING FAITHFUL THAT I COULD SCREAM! (which i could, if my parents werent so exhausted from their trip) Sooooo my parents own a restaurant which is next door to one of the biggest modeling agencies in the tri-state area (aside from NYC obviously.) The president of the modeling agency is also the president of the beauty school i attended, and more than that-- he has been a very close friend of the family since i was 6. Ever hear of a show called "What NOT to Wear?" Well the stylist for that show is the internationally known stylist/educator/razor extrodinair!/the head kahuna of the hair styling world...Nick Arrojo. Nick has a huge salon/school in NYC. People work YEARSSS to work under Nick. Well Mr. President of the modeling agency/school/family friend is really good friends with Mr. Arrojo. For months our friend has been talking me up telling me that he was going to get me there... and for months i waited and trusted his word. And i didnt see/hear anything.... I started freaking out.. even crying.. and for some retarded reason, i was scared to approach him about the situation, or even take it into my own hands. To me, if i went after it, i wasnt trusting God and letting Him do the work--HAHAHAHAHA. Can we all just join together...and then point & laugh in my silly lil asian face?? Well like i said, i finally PRAYED ABOUT IT, i finally SPENT TIME TALKING TO GOD ABOUT IT... and He gave me the strength, and the boldness to finally write some emails, and call the damn friend and get things moving...

here i am... a little over a week later... signed up for 4 seperate advanced training classes with AMAZING stylists... ANDDDDD ((drum roll please)) and interview with Nick Arrojo HIMSELF.

I make the call tomorrow to officially set everything up... but all is not done yet. I dont want to speak too soon.. but all i know is, that handing it ALL to the Lord really does make a difference... and when you are bold and go after the things you want... ONLY THAN will things happen. Sitting back and waiting for the call wont happen... sometimes you have to take that Go given strength and put it to work! So if you are sitting there contemplating ANYTHING... STOP CONTEMPLATING! The world is yours to grab and take hold... whatever should be yours--WILL BE YOURS. You just have to trust God, and take a pure leap of faith. He has promised you so many things... but if you dont want to take advantage of those promises, you have no one to blame but yourself.

So here i am... taking hold of my dreams and praising Jesus for His strength to do so, and for His spirit to guide my every step.

Now all i have to do is not only get His guidance... BUT STOP BEING SUCH A WIMP AND FOLLOW WHAT HE TELLS ME! In a matter of A WEEK... i listened, i obeyed... and here i am pretty much at the doorstep of my dreams.

Keep praying for those who have kept me in their prayers, because now that i got the interview.. comes the hard part... GETTING THE JOB.

But this i most definitely know... that if it was meant for me... God will supply me with all the right tools to get what He has planned for me to have.

Thank you for your prayers... KEEP PRAYING!!

LoveLoveLove,

Stace.

This is the way You make all things New.

(this was a t-shirt print i saw on a boardwalk in OC,MD... i want this tattooed on me.)

God is doing so many amazing things in my life... and I feel like quite the fool when i complain about the little things to not see the bigger picture...

Again... can i please inform EVERYONE who doesnt believe... PRAYER CHANGES THINGS... MANY MANY THINGS!!! 

I think the whole concept of prayer somehow got altered through time. Whenever i tell people to prayer for me, or when people ask me to pray for them... for some reason, the initial connection we make with prayer is that we have this huge notion that if we ask God to do something, and we do it with some selfish request... we expect Him to act on that prayer right away. Another notion is that when we pray about something or we ask for something... we what it to all fall into place according to OUR time... or what we think is most convenient to US. 

We're such silly people.

Since my blog is indeed titled "daily revelations" i have had a revelation recently... well actually its been revealed to me time and time again... (yes, this is where i laugh at myself and my broken human nature)... Prayer DOES change things... but theres two parts to this... 

1. In GOD's time

2.  By US doing OUR part too.

Like i stated before... we always expect to pray and ask and expect things NOW or expect things that align to whatever schedule that WE have laid out for ourselves and our "controlled" lives... but this doesnt align. Mind you, sometime God does answer prayers a little faster than you'd think (ive had this happen on several occasions, its quite bone chilling yet amazing all in the same experience!) but also we must trust that He will answer our prayers. Not necessarily when and how we want them... but according to HIS time and ultimately to HIS will. You see, has a plan for you, a plan for me, a plan for this world and how its going to run, and even how its going to end. So again, dont sit, and pout, or even some people become angry and bitter bc "God didnt do this for me, He didnt give me this, He didnt show up here..." Let me remind you... He will do what is GOOD for you, and lets be honest with ourselves-- what WE want isnt always the best thing for us. He will give... "Ask and you shall recieve" but again... greed and selfishness wasnt part of His plan. He has it all laid out, He has it allllll under control. And sometimes we may not understand why certain things happen, how they happened, or what the lesson is... but He has stated several times--if you look for Him in any and every situation WITH YOUR WHOLEEEE HEART... you WILL find Him in the midst of it all. Our finite minds werent designed to ever understand His perfect plan for our lives... but the closer you become to Him, the more time and devotion and love you pour back into your RELATIONSHIP with Him, His plan for you will become easier and easier for you to understand... I have friends... and family (CLOSEE friends and CLOSEE family) going through situations right now that they dont understand... but i cant help but smile... because i know that He is bringing them closer and closer to wanting and needing Him... and also because i know and trust how perfect His plan is... and i cant wait to see these people blossom and bloom into what He intended to be the end result... When it all comes down to it... dont lose faith because you think your prayers arent being answered... dont lose persistence or perseverance on these things on your heart... God placed those things or those people or those situations on your heart for a reason... so keep on praying... keep on believing... keep on focusing on Him in every situation... and you'll see you have nothing to worry about.

Now the part where we have to do OUR part. HAHAHAHA silly right?? US HAVING TO ACTUALLY GET UP AND DO SOME WORK TOO?! WHAT A CONCEPT! We all ask for things separately, or things as groups, as churches, even as nations! But i have come to realize that when we pray... we arent only asking for things from God, but for guidance on things from God. What prayer actually is... is you spending time with Him. You hanging out with Him. You having a chit-chat with your friend (well more like your creator... but anyways...) When you sit and talk to friends about your issues, about your problems, about you wishes, about your hopes and your aspirations, what are you really looking for in these conversations? No doubt, you're looking for good company and support, but you're also looking for their advice, for their input, for their guidance even. So when we pray, why do we put so much focus on what HE needs to do... but not listen with more open hearts and ears as to what WE need to do. We always ask for help... we always ask Him to have hands on situations... but when did we forget that we are "The hands and feet of the body..." When did we lose sight of the fact that we are His workers, His ambassadors, His reps in this world we live in? We need to stop being so selfish and constantly asking Him to do this and to do that... but instead we need to ask Him for guidance, for strength, for His company, and ultimately, for what we CAN and what we SHOULD do. In all reality... He's already given so much (and He will continue to give you more and more... we're truly a blessed bunch, arent we?) We need to act like the hands and feet of this body. Again, He does have a plan... but if we just sit on our butts and wait on Him... thats not gonna get anyone far... We must be a bold people... we must be a people who lives out the things we are guided and called to do. We are the messengers of the Good News... but if we aren't gonna do anything to deliver the news... well than we're pretty much a bunch of ppl who talk a lot of talk but arent willing to do the walk. I think its funny how we are so ready and eager to do the things that people we trust tell us to do... or take the advice and go about that advice based on the words of our friends... and in no way am i down playing when we do this--- bc i believe that these people do have the best interest in heart for you... but who could have better advice and better guidance and better strength than the guy who already KNOWS where you're going to end up?? Who can tell you what to do better than the guy who WROTE our that plan before you were even born? So im not saying discredit the advice from those you love... but lets be bold... and do those crazy things that God is telling us to do.... He not only has your best interest in mind, but He isnt basing these interests on YOU... but on His already perfect plan. Dont stop praying just because, again, you feel like your prayers are going unheard and unanswered... but instead...listen like you would if your mom was giving you advice. Do what you're told like if someone you deeply cared about and trusted would tell you to do. Keep praying... because, lets not forget, you have the things on your heart for a reason... and its because He placed those things there "Delight thyself in the Lord, and He will give you the desires of your heart" Whatever is on your heart was put there by Him... and Hes doing that so you pray about it, thus talking and discussing it with Him, and He needs you to do what He tells you, so that these things can change, so that these prayers can start to be answered, so that you can act as any part of the body He needs you to be, what He has called you to do.

Ive been a Christian for a little less than two years now... and it has been one hard... but a beautiful ride. And in this time... i have so many things on my heart... the obvious being my family, my friends, my career... for so long i've been basking in this personal relationship with my savior... but in the past few weeks he's been telling me to be his hands and feet... he's been asking me to take part in answering my prayers... he's been strengthening me and guiding me to make my next move... Im not innocent of anything i wrote about. If guilty people have bloodstained hands... well i could be considered dripping in it like Carrie.

Im declaring this now. I will not be impatient anymore... but wait for my next step. I will trust in my Jesus, because He has ALWAYS been faithful. He has given me so much proof within the past WEEK how much He is doing... and will continue to do... Ive been persistently praying for them... and ive shedded many tears bc i felt so discouraged when things werent happening in MY time or in the way that IIII expected and wanted them to... but when everything is said and done... HE HAS BEEN FAITHFUL. When i looked for Jesus in all my situations, in all my worries, and in all my complaining... He surely was doing His work... and i just have to trust that... and be ready to be bold and take a leap in pureeee *organic* faith when He tells me to make my next move...

Dont be impatient... all things fall together in time...

Dont be angry when things dont come in the packages you want... because the most beautiful things in life come at times and in packages that we leastttttttt expect...

Dont be scared to make a move... throughout history, it was always the BOLD ones who got far. It was always the fearless ones who made it happen. When it comes to a relationship its two people... you cant always ask and receive... but remember you must be willing to do your part too....

"'For i know the plans i have for you,' says the Lord. 'They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope. In those days when you pray, I will listen. If you look for me wholeheartedly, you will find me." Jeremiah 29:11-13

"I look up to the mountains- does my help come from there?

My help comes from the Lord, who made heaven and earth!

He will not let you stumble; the one who watches over you will not slumber...

The Lord himself watches over you! The Lord stands beside you as your protective shade.

The sun will not harm you by day, nor the moon at night.

The Lord keeps you from all hard and watches over your life." Psalm 121:1-7

Love you! God Bless. :]

--Stace<3

Stacyology. :]

Let others know a little more about yourself, re-post this as your name followed by "ology"

***********FOODOLOGY***************

What is your salad dressing of choice?
balsamic vinaigrette 
or creamy parmesan

What is your favorite sit-down restaurant? 
tao, pacifico, the edgeeee, buddakan, and apollo grille.

What food could you eat every day for two weeks and not get sick of? 
chorizo burrito from tulum... if meat and cheese werent bad for me.. or the fact that chorizo has more trans fat than should be allowed lol

What are your pizza toppings of choice?
veggie!!! i like pizza that has broc, mushrooms, tomatoes, fresh garlic, and onions on it... mmmm

What do you like to put on your toast? 
i dont really eat toast... but strawberry jelly!

Chocolate or Vanilla? 
chocolate of course! :]

***********TECHNOLOGY***************

How many televisions are in your house? 
4

What color cell phone do you have? 
i have an iphone... but i have a purple case on it. :]

Do you have a laptop? 
macbook<3>***************BIOLOGY******************

Are you right-handed or left-handed? 
righty... but both my siblings are leftys, weird, huh?

Have you ever had anything removed from your body? 
teeth? lol

What is the last heavy item you lifted? 
hahahaha... gooood question. my fat ass?? lol

Have you ever been knocked unconscious? 
nope... :]

************BULLCRAPOLOGY**************

If it were possible, would you want to know the day you were going to die? 
nope.. only God should know certain things.. some things are better left unknown.

If you could change your name, what would you change it to? 
i wouldnt... im THE stacy ho!

Would you drink an entire bottle of hot sauce for $1000? 
if it were a relatively small bottle.. SURE!
************DUMBOLOGY******************

How many pairs of flip flops do you own? 
umm not many.. maybe like 4?? im a boots kinda girl... i'll where boots even when its 100 degrees outside! lol

Last time you had a run-in with the cops? 
when i was little... i set the alarm off at my house and the cops came. oops. lol

Last person you talked to on the phone? 
tina

Last person you hugged? 
my matthew<3>**************FAVORITOLOGY****************

Season?
summer... and beginning of fall

Holiday? 
ummm... christmas! the day my savior was born. :]

Day of the week? 
no specific one... every day is a God given day... and i love them all the same.

Month? 
july

***********CURRENTOLOGY*****************

Missing someone? 
i cant wait till my mom gets home... im such a baby lol

What are you listening to? 
ABDC!!! QUEST CREWWWW!

Watching? 
ABDC!!! QUEST CREWWW! lol

Worrying about? 
i worry too much when i think bout it..."

"'For i know the plans i have for you,' says the Lord. 'They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope. In those days when you pray, i will listen. If you look for me wholeheartedly, you will find me'" Jeremiah 29:11-12

amen.<3>***************RANDOMOLOGY****************

First place you went this morning? 
i was home alll morning.

Do you smile often? 
Gods far too good to not smile.

Sleeping alone tonight? 
prettty much every night. lol

Do you always answer your phone? 
nope... im the queen for not answering... i dont generally like being on the phone so your better off just texting me. lol

What flavor do you add to your drink at Sonic? 
ive never had sonic... and i personally like water just plain. lol

Do you own a digital camera? 
i do! a pretty sweet one thanks to my matthew<3>

What's on your wish list for your birthday? 
new shears and a REAL razor... not the crap ones from school. 

Can you do push ups? 
very few... my upper body strength is pretty much lacking.

Can you do a chin up? 
nope... hahahaha

Do you have any saved texts? 
not necessarily "saved"... i just never delete them lol

Ever been in a car wreck? 
ummm 3. they arent fun. not one bit!

Do you have an accent? 
nope.

What is the last song to make you cry? 
the one we sang for communion at church this week

"As we break this bread, as we drink this cup, Lord we remember... This is the way you've chosen to say, this is the way You make all things new..."

Plans tonight? 
sleeeep

Have you ever felt like you hit rock bottom? 
many times... and thats when the Lord finally found me.

Name 3 things you bought yesterday? 
nothing... i was at church and worked... i bought cute clothes today tho! and some stuff for church!

Have you ever been given roses? 
i have<3

Current hate right now?
i dont hate anything... cept for how impatient i am. if i were more patient... i wouldnt worry so much lol

Met someone who changed your life? 
Matthew... Bc of him... he showed me a God who loves, who forgives, who will change your world and make it so shiny and new. and i couldnt thank him enough for loving me for ME.

How did you bring in the New Year? 
at my cousin's party... and then catching a plane to vegas.

Would you go back in time if you were given the chance? 
nope... every single thing was for a purpose... and i believe many things were to break me so bad to bring me to my knees... and my knees crying to Christ has been the best thing that has ever happened to me. 

Have you ever dated someone longer than a year? 
first bf--3.5 years... current bf 2 years and 3 months.

Do you have any tattoos/piercings? 
piercings: three in each ear, my belly button, my nose, my monroe, and my tongue (i dont wear jewelry in my tongue)
tattoos: a piece under my neck, between my shoulder blades that has a butterfly, and cherry blossoms and reads "jesus loves you" in chinese, and a dragon/flowers piece from under my right pit down past my hip...above my thigh.
Does anyone love you? 
Jesus loves me more than i deserve... and He loves you too.

What songs do you sing in the shower? 
mostly worship songs lately lol...

Ever had someone sing to you? 
yes<33>

What are you saving your money up for right now? 
to move out.

When is the last time you ate peanut butter and jelly? 
umm prob like a month ago... mmm i could go for some right now tho!

Pet Peeves? 
when ppl say one thing and do another--hypocrisy drives me insane. And when people blatantly and consciously hurt others. Its cruel, its in humane... whether you physically abuse them, or emotionally abuse them... no person deserves to be judged. Whenever you choose to judge others, i hope you know you're condemning yourself to be judged as well. Every time you hurt someone, you're hurting God himself. It sounds completely corny... but i wish we could all just swallow our self righteousness, and love each other... not bc of WHO we are, but bc of WHAT we are... we're all human, doing this crazy thing called "life" together.

I love you. God bless. :]

--Stace

Fear not, for I am with you.

Theres nothing like the body of Christ working together, praying together, encouraging one another...

i am so blessed to be part of a kingdom where we love one another, where we are there for one another, where we are there to pick up one another.

Pray for me... because our prayers really do CHANGE things...

and our Jesus made that clear to us throughout history... and throughout the present.

Im so thankful for my brothers and sisters in Christ. 

I cannot even begin to tell you how much i appreciate all your prayers.

Thank you. I love you. God bless.

<3

"Amazing grace, how sweet the sound

That saves a wretch like me.

I once was lost, but now, I'm found

Was blind, but now, I see

Twas grace that taught me heart to fear

And fear, His grace relieved

How precious did that grace appear

The hour i first believed

My chains are Gone

Ive been Set Free

My God, My Savior--Has ransomed Me

And like a flood, His Mercy Reigns

Unending Love...

Amazing Grace."

My chains are gone, Ive been set free.

Sooo YAYYYY TO NOT BEING SICK ANYMORE! I really dont like feeling like poop, its probably the worst thing ever for someone like me, who loves to be loud and energetic. But all is well... i still have a little cough but for the most part, im allls better. :]

Its been a week since my last blog, and i must say much has happened. Ok, let me re-word that, not much has actually "happened"... but my eyes have been opened to a lot. 

Right now, i am pretty much in the middle of a whole lot of mess... and its been hurting me on a level i didnt understand for almost months now, but i had this revelation, really, that God does have it all under control. The God is doing so many things around. That when i think to worry, to lay it at His feet, because that is the best place to lay all my worries and problems...

I have been pretty stressed out about what my next move would be. Im done with school, i had my graduation ceremony, i even got chosen to be a speaker at the ceremony itself, and yet i felt like i was going no where. I've been so over-worked up over what i was going to do, where i was going to do it, WAS I GOING TO BE ABLE TO DO IT in the first place... to sum it up, i was under-estimating ME. I realized that not only was i under-estimating myself, but i was under-estimating my God, my Lord, my Savior----which is RIDICULOUS!

I KNOW that God has big plans for me... that even if my own brain is telling me that im not good enough for this, or good enough for that, that this person wont pull through, that this person isnt behind me... it doesnt even amount to how much GOD is there with me. That what is meant to be mine WILL BE MINE. And i just need to spend more time with God, to pray more, to LISTEN more, to OBEY more. If i just follow what He says, and trust in HIS plans... it'll all work out more beautifully than i ever even imagined myself. Because of THAT, im so excited to get started.

Ultimately--i want to move to NYC for a few years, get some experience, build a resume, learn from the best, and then hopefully, with the Lord's strength, one day be able to not work UNDER these people, but BESIDE these people. I eventually want to move to LA, and settle down there. I want to raise my family in sunny CA. People are nicer, things aren't as busy and crazy, and the educational system there is amazing. Not to mention, some of the coolest styles and musicians are in LA. These things have been revealed to me over time, and were revealed to me when i PRAYED about it. I kept telling myself that im not good enough to do these big things, but it wont just be me-- bc God does bigger and better things than this, and He will help me persevere. and in THAT i do trust. THAT i do KNOW and BELIEVE.

Soo many people are behind me, so many people believe in me... now damnit, I just need to believe in myself...

Ive been humble this entire ride.... now i must be both humble, but be confident. And by golly-- I AM ONE STRONG ASS CHICK. I might be little, i might be goofy, i might be a huge dork, but i am hella-tough. I just need to re-focus my badassness into my career and all the things that God has for me... I need to not sit back and wait for it to come to me, but go after it with all my heart and all my God given strength.

So in the next few weeks, i will be doing some big things. I will be getting ready and practicing for my state boards. I will be setting up interviews in NYC and Philly even. I will be searching and listening to God for a mission opportunity. I will be getting up and standing strong with my God, and going after the things that i want to happen. Strength doesn't come from outside one's self, but from WITHIN one's self. And i have a whole lot of strength from the Holy Spirit. And THAT kind of strength cannot be penetrated.

What would i do without my Jesus??

NOTHING. I could not do anything.

Well i could do some things... but, poop, i know they wouldn't amount to anything truly good. 

:]

truths.

today was uneventful... yet so relaxing. im still feeling pretty icky... getting over my flu.

my parents left for taiwan today. they're gonna be gone fore two weeks... which means i'll be stuck here in this big ol' house pretty much all alone. there are both pros and cons to this... but considering the fact that my mom is one of my bestfriends... it makes me sad. :[

tomorrowwww-- matthew and i are FINALLY gonna celebrate our valentines day. :) ive been sick... hes been working and school... and NOW we can finally celebrate our day of cheesyness a few days late...

well--- better late than never right? :]

found this on facebook... and since i have nothing else more exciting to write about... i decided to fill this out. :0

love love love loveeeee---stace face<3

100 truths

tag your friends
find out 100 truths about them!

1. last beverage - ginger green tea :]
2. last phone call - matthewww
3. last text message- matthew lol
4. last song you listened to - umm i dont remember particularly... i have the jacks mannequin cd playing in my car tho.
5. last time you cried - today bc im sick and emo lol

SIX HAVE YOU EVER:
6. dated someone twice? ummm well ive broken up and gotten back together with 3 sep. ppl. i know... i cant make up my damn mind lol
7. been cheated on? umm kinda... 
8. kissed someone & regretted it? i dont believe so.
9. lost someone special?  ive lost a few special ppl.
10. been depressed?  before i came to Christ... ive had man depressed times.
11. been drunk and threw up?  not many times...but its happened. yuck!

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS:
12. purple
13. teal
14. pink


THIS Year HAVE YOU:
15. Made new friends? i have... metro love <33
16. Fallen out of love? i have not.
17. Laughed until you cried? i do that all the time lol
18. Met someone who changed you? not really changed me... but most def inspired me.
19. Found out who your true friends were? yes.
20. Found out someone was talking about you? yes... for the ONE TIME in my life when i thot i was being good... catty ADULT WOMEN seem to love talking bout me hahahahaha. wow, i love mature ppl.
21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list? my matthew. lol
22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life? pron like 90-95% of them
23. How many kids do you want to have? hmm... 2-3 of my own and adopt atleast 1 or 2
24. Do you have any pets? my olddddd dog taison... he's a trooper.
25. Do you want to change your name? nope... i will always be and always be known as stacy ho
27. What did you do for your last birthday? MEDIEVAL TIMES!!! hahahahaha!
28. What time did you wake up today? like 10:30...felt like shit... and then fell asleep for another hour...
29. What were you doing at midnight last night? ummm... dont remember...
30. Name something you CANNOT wait for? TO GET A JOBBBB lol
31. Last time you saw your father? today before him and my mom left for the airport :[
32. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life? that i lived in NYC and that i was doing more evangelizing. 
33. What are you listening to right now? Perfect Murder is playing on HBO
34. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom? ive talked to a lot of ppl named tom prob lol
35. What's getting on your nerves right now? that i still feel icky and that my headache wont go away :[
36. Most visited webpage? my facebook lol
37. Whats your real name? STACY HO! :]
38. Nicknames? stace, ho, ho-bag, she-she, stizzy, stizzle, sta- stacy
39. Relationship Status? very much taken :]
40. Zodiac sign? gemini
41. Male or female or transgendered? female (is it just me... or did the real world make the whole transgendered thing cooler than it ever was?)
42. Elementary? Gockley hahaha
43. Middle School? Steckel
44. High school? whitehall
45. Hair color? naturally---REALLLY dark brown....but right now i have white panels in it.
46. Long or short? umm short, almost medium---THANK YOU LORD for my hair that grows like weeds.
47. Height? 5'2
48. Do you have a crush on a celebrity? ROBERT PATTINSONN lol
49. What do you like about yourself? that i dont sweat the small stuff...bc really, God is too good to sit and dwell on the bad. That i constantly count my blessings and keep a smile on my face through anything. Im hardworking and ambitious, and i wont let that tear me down. My aspirations are goals for me--but i never let them make me who i am. I am compassionate and i promise you that if you EVER needed me, no matter who you are, i would try with everything i had to supply you with your needs... and if it were not in my power, i would try to find what you need for you. I love my carefree sense of style. I love how outgoing i am but at the same time, i have a great sense of when and where to draw the line. I love that i love life... i guess i just love who i am in Christ... bc im nothing without Him, really.
50. Piercings? 6 in each ear... nose... belly button... monroe... and my tongue (i dont wear nething in it tho.)
51. Tattoos? my back (cherry blossoms and it reads 'jesus loves you' in chinese) and a dragon with asian style flowers down my entire right side of my torso.
52. Righty or lefty? rightyyyy (but both my siblings are leftys lol)

FIRSTS :
53. First surgery? never had one... i hope it stays that way lol
54. First piercing? ummm my sis took me to get my ears pierced when i was 8
55. First best friend? umm krysti.. funny how she remained my bestfriends growing up lol
56. First sport you joined? cheering... shhhh, dont repeat that.
57. First pet? my old Pekinese champagne... she died when i was 8 :[
58. First vacation? taiwan
59. First concert? some chinese singer i was OBSESSED with when i was lil
60. First crush? that chinese singer i went to go see lol

RIGHT NOW
61. Eating? naddaa
62. Drinking? nothinggg
63. I'm about to? fall asleeeep
64. Listening to? my televisionn
65. Waiting for? this to be done lol

YOUR FUTURE :
66. Want kids? yepppp...one day--not netime soon tho lol
67. Get married? mmm hmm <33
68. Careers in mind? i ultimately would love to be INFRONT of the camera... but i know i wasnt blessed with height, so that will be unlikely... but i would loveee to work on movie sets and doing hair and makeup and being a stylist would be awesome.

WHICH IS BETTER :
69. Lips or eyes - eyes
70. Hugs or kisses - hmmm..this is a toughy... kisses
71. Shorter or taller - im short... so DEF taller.
72. Older or Younger - older... not too much tho
73. Romantic or spontaneous - romantic :]
74. Nice stomach or nice arms - i tend to like skinny guys lol so i guess doesnt matter to me... im not into meat heads in general.
75. Sensitive or loud - a balance of both...bc im a balance of both
76. Hook-up or relationship - im def a long-term relationship type of girl.
77. Trouble maker or hesitant - hmmm... hesitant.

HAVE YOU EVER :
78. Kissed a stranger - yep.
79. Drank hard liquor - tooo much.
80. Lost glasses/contacts - im the queen of losing EVERYTHING. lol
81. Sex on first date - def not.
82. Broken someone's heart? yep... :[
83. Had your own heart broken - yep... a lot. im too loving. :[
84. Been drunk - yep.
85. Been arrested - nope.
86. Turned someone down - A LOT.
87. Cried when someone died - i cry when ne1 is HURT... let alone died. :[
88. Liked a friend that is a girl? - uhh no lol

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
89. Yourself - i do,
90. Miracles -Im a walking miracle (not in a conceited way at all.)
91. Love at first sight - umm... to an extent, but you cant base love off of physical attraction. BIG diff between lust and love.
92. Heaven - def, and i cant wait to go home. :]
93. Santa Clause - uhh no lol terrible man who took the focus off of Jesus on christmas.
94. Karma - you reap what you sew.
95. Kiss on the first date? - on the cheek maybe... but you miss out on a person when you jump the gun on anything.
96. Angels - yes. they protect me everyday.

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
97. Is there one person you want to be with right now? yup.
98. Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at one time? def not... was "talking" to more than one guy at a time... but wasnt serious bout any of them for it to count.
99. Told someone you loved them when you didn't? def not.
100. Posting this as 100 truths? well as "truths" lol

can you tell i love surveys??

((NO THAT IS NOT A POSTCARD... THAT IS THE BAHAMAS WHEN I WENT LAST YEAR... AND THIS COLD AND SICKNESS IS MAKING ME MISS IT!))

i think i like to fill these suckers out bc it allows me to answer some random ?'s and at the same time... its an easy way to get to know me on a small scale. :]

Have you ever falle​n aslee​p with the last perso​n you kisse​d?​​​:​
yes...manyyyyy times. <33

What were you doing​ at 10:​​​30 last night​?​:​
laying on my couch with a very high fever...and ready to snap into insanity with how crappy i felt! :[

Are you liste​ning to music​ right​ now?​:​
i am not... strange since i do everything to a theme song lol

Do you prefe​r warm or cold weath​er?​​​:​
warm...mostttt def warm

What were you doing​ at 7am this morni​ng?​​​:​
passsssed out.

Were you happy​ when you woke up this morni​ng?​​​:​
happier... i thanked God immediately when i realized my fever was gone and my body wasnt aching like crazy anymore.

What mood are you in right​ now?​:​
a good one i suppose...my matthew is so darn cute on that webcam of his! :]

Is your room ever clean​?​​​:​
hahahahahaha..NEXT QUESTION!

Is there​ someo​ne who you can spend​ every​ minut​e with and be happy​?​​​:​
Jesus<3>

Do you like to cuddl​e?​​​:​
i LOVE to cuddle! its one of my favs.

What jewel​ry are you weari​ng?​:​
my promise ring from matthew... and my tri-toned gold bracelet from my mommy!

Who gave that jewel​ry to you?​:​
uhh matthew.... and my mommy! lol

Who was the last perso​n you talke​d on the phone​ with?​​​:​
my sisterrrrr

How late did you stay up last night​?​​​:​
around 1'ish?

How is life going​ for you right​ now?​:​
God is good! He's been pouring out more and more blessings every day... and i dont deserve even a bit of it. 

Are you keepi​ng a secre​t right​ now?​:​
we all have personal things to deal with...

What if you had a baby with the last perso​n you texte​d?​​​:​
wellll unless they came up with some miraculous way as to how me and krysti could conceive a child... i'll answer this question at THAT time. :]

Do you think​ you can last for an hour witho​ut talki​ng?​​​:​
i actually prefer to not talk a lot of times when im at home... which may come as a surprise to many ppl since i talk a lot lol

Has anyon​e put their​ arms aroun​d you in the past 5 days?​​​:​
yes.... matthew held me while i felt like death <33>

Is the last perso​n you kisse​d mad at you?​:​
i hope not lol

Is there​ someo​ne that makes​ you happy​ every​ time you see them?​​:​

generally matthew... he is also the only person besides my sis who can anger me... lol

Are you missi​ng anyon​e?​​​:​
i guess you could say that...

Are you satis​fied with how thing​s are going​?​​​:​
God knows what He's doing...and THAT i am satisfied with. :]

Have you ever given​ up on someo​ne,​​​ but then went back to them?​​​:​
i dont think you can really "give up" and then go back... you didnt really give up than. so no... ive broken up and gone back to certain ppl many times... and i shouldve stayed away prob after the first time. i never seem to listen to my intuition. darn.

Does it bothe​r you when someo​ne lies to you?​:​
it does. but its not completely unforgivable... depending on what you lied about anyways...

Think​ of the perso​n you told "I love you" last,​​​ did you mean it?:
it was matthew... and i mean it with every bit of my heart.

Are you happi​er singl​e or in a relat​ionsh​ip?​​​:​
i think it depends on who you're in a relationship with... but there are pro's and con's to both... but right now i am happier in my relationship with my matthew :]

Are you in a fight​ with anyon​e now?​:​
nope... unless someone is upset with me and i have no idea lol

Do you have more than one best frien​d?​​​:​
i do.... i grew up blessed with many good ppl.

In the past week,​​​ have you cried​?​​​:​
yes... i felt so sick and was sure i was going to die--and i started to cry bout it. i know... im silly.

Dark hair or light​ hair in the oppos​i​te sex?​:​
either or... as long as the cut is good ;]

Who is your favor​ite perso​n to talk to when you’r​e down?​​​:​
jesus... hes always there and manages to carry me through any given situation.

Are you open about​ your feeli​ngs or close​d off?​:​
im pretty damn open to say the least lol

Is it okay to kiss peopl​e when you'​​​re singl​e?​​​:​
yess.. but be careful---you can pass cooties still!

Would​ you kiss someo​ne to make your ex bf/​​​gf mad?​:​
most def not.... we're not in middle school anymore.

Are you weari​ng a neckl​ace?​​:​
not at the moment.

Would​ you like to put last night​ on repea​t and live it forev​er?​​:​
NOOOOOO! I WISH I COULD ERASE LAST NIGHT AND NEVER EVER HAVE TO LIVE IT AGAIN. I HATEEE the flu with a passion i didnt know could exist.

What'​​s the best thing​ that happe​ned to you today​?​:​
when i didnt have a fever anymore!!!

Do you take walks​ when you'​​re mad?​:​
usually i'll write... a lot... and pray... and run--not walk--runnnnnn.

If you could​ chang​e your eye color​,​​ would​ you?​:​
i would.... which is why i wear colored contacts i suppose.

Who did you last get in a big argum​ent with?​​:​
matthew lol

Would​ you prefe​r a baby boy or girl?​​:​
either or i suppose... :]

What was the weath​er like today​?​​:​
sunny and in the high 30's... i stayed in all day since i was still sick tho :[

What did you do this after​noon?​​:​
I def didnt wake up till 1 in the afternoon... yes.... i slept a full 12 hours

When was the last time you were truly​ sad?​:​
the other day when matthew was being a lil on the mean side of things... to many, this may be normal for guys... but to me---it was downright out of nature for him bc my matthew is the nicest person EVER.

For the most part,​​ do you like your life?​​:​
i do... but i wish i was doing more with it at the moment.

Where​ did your last hug take place​?​​:​
in the parking lot to the sushi place after getting food with krys and katie

​

Are you singl​e?​:​
i dont even know the meaning to that word nemore... (2 years and a month and still going strong!!)

Have you ever kisse​d anyon​e whose​ name start​ed with a T?
my bf of 3.5 years name started with a T... so yes.

Are you in a good mood?​
sure! :]

Who are all the texts​ in your inbox​ from?​
i have an iphone so it pretty much has every person who has ever text me in the inbox lol

What'​s worse​?​ : liars​ or cheat​ers?​
im pretty sure if you are a cheater that qualifies you for being a liar as well... and both equally suck to the core.

Is it easie​r to forgi​ve or forge​t?​
you cant truly forgive someone or something without forgetting it... but i must admit it is hard to do either... but i really do try to forgive ppl for anything and everything-- even if its unforgivable-- Jesus died so we could be forgiven... no matter what we did or who we are... its the same price for everyone. So if he could DIE for me, why couldnt i forgive for you?

Can men and women​ be "​just frien​ds"​?​
some of my very best friends are guys...so yes, this is very possible.

Ever kisse​d a stran​ger then walke​d away?​
welllll THATS just silly!

Where​ were you at 2:02 today​?​
eating a bowl of captain crunch berries lol

Do you hate the last boy you were talki​ng to?
not at all... i love him... so much.

Have you held hands​ with anyon​e today​?​
no but i cuddled my matthew<33

Is there​ a perso​n of the oppos​ite sex that you care a lot about​?​
i care a lot about everyone...<33

Did anyon​e watch​ you the last time you kisse​d someo​ne?​
nope... no one was home.

Are you a morni​ng perso​n or a night​ perso​n?​
most deffff a night person.

Would​ you go out in publi​c looki​ng like you do now?
mmm hmm.

Has anyon​e upset​ you last week?​
yep.. oh wells... no need to fret.

Did you wake up in the middl​e of the night​ last night​?​
nope... slept like a baby since i didnt sleep for like 48 hours since i was sooooo sick.

Do you care what peopl​e think​ about​ you?
not really at all... i just try to love other ppl bc thats all i can do.

Are you waiti​ng for somet​hing?​
not particularly.

Could​ you go a month​ witho​ut cursi​ng?​
if no one made me really mad...sure! i dont like to curse too much... i think it comes across trashy.

Have you ever ridde​n a horse​?​
i have... my butt hurt a lot for the week after lol

You can only drink​ ONE liqui​d for the rest of your life,​ what is it?
if coffee wasnt dehydrating--COFFEEE

Are you anyth​ing like you were at this point​ last year?​
i'd like to think ive grown a lot more... i think everyday i grow a little bit more... so a year's worth of growing should be pretty different i suppose. :]

Have you lost conta​ct with someo​ne you wish you didn'​t?​
yes.

Do you think​ you can last in a relat​ionsh​ip for 3 month​s?​
i have been in 2 long term relationships... one for 3.5 years and my current one for 2... so yess... 3 months seems cake to me.

How'​s your heart​ latel​y?​
full of loveeeee<333

Think​ a lot befor​e you fall aslee​p?​
depends how tired i am lol

Hones​tly,​ what'​s on your mind right​ now?
im getting fat and i neeeeeeed to go to the gym and run about 2934829 miles

Last perso​n you talke​d to?
ta tina on ichat

When was the last time you saw your grand​pa?​
when i was 16.

Have you kisse​d more than 10 peopl​e this year?​
no... ive been kissing the same person for over 2 years now.

What was the last thing​ you drank​?​
waterrr

Last Decem​ber,​ singl​e or taken​?​

ive been taken for the past 3 decembers lol

What'​s bothe​ring you right​ now?
my chunkynesssss