reading>running

i should be at the gym...

but i decided to drink some coffee and read a bit instead.

currently reading a book called "the irresistible revolution" by shane claiborne. The author is a young christian (mid 20's?) who has taken part in a way of life that reflects how God intended christians to really be--and that is to LOVE. This book covers his journey as a young radical, living out the words of Jesus. It breaks my heart when i tell people im a Christian and their reaction is usually 1. im a judgmental hypocrite or 2. im a jesus freak ready to throw down bible in your face.

im not judgemental--i try my very best to love everyone and anyone for who they are and where they are in their life. im no better than the person next to, infront of, or behind me. if nething, im prob worse without the grace of God.

im not a hypocrite-- im just not perfect. I want to live in a God-honoring way, but just like everyone else, im a screw up. I suck. I make mistakes. I have done things since i became a Christian and still continue to do things that i wish i didnt and dont do. But again, thats why His grace is so amazing.

im not a "Jesus Freak"--im just someone who has fallen inlove with her savior and who enjoys praising Him every second of every day for saving me.

i wont throw down the bible-- but if you wanna argue it, trust me, im down to argue it. Its funny how things these days have gotten so messed up that people no longer can discern what is TRUTH and merely a philosophy. 

Im 5'3. I weigh a mere 120 (115 lbs on a good day.). Im little to say the least, but i know how huge my heart is. I know the spirit that God has placed in me and that spirit is bigger than myself and everything else that i know of. I just want to LOVE. I want to give random hugs to people who dont know me. I want to cook lots of food and feed hungry people with it. I want to buy out Sal-Val and clothe the cold. . I want to travel to different countries and do silly dances with people who have nothing, yet have so much more life than i could imagine. I want to live like my Jesus and pour out all this love in me onto people who never felt an ounce of love before.

Some monk said "There are many things in this life that we all could live without. But no one can live without LOVE, and God IS love." I wish i knew this monk--i would give him a pound, possibly a big kiss on his bald monk head. Because it is so true... all we all really want is to love and be loved. Some people dont know how to get that love so they fall into doing things in search of it, in search of the "thing" that will fill that void. If there is one thing i could leave any reader with is that LOVE is not something you can find, not something you can buy, not something you can steal, but it is something that is intangible and yet alllllll around you. Whether you believe in God or not, HE DOES LOVE YOU. If you feel the world has given up on you, HE HAS NOT. If you feel like you mean nothing to anyone anymore, YOU STILL MEAN THE WORLD TO HIM. He doesnt create to destroy, but He enjoys to watch those bloom... every living thing has to go through birth, has to go through growth, has to go through the droughts, the floods, the fires, the rain, the cold, the hot, the wind... but if He puts mere plants and animals through elements like that and manages to get them through it, imagine what He has planned for you. 

I challenge you, reader, to do a single day differently. For just ONE day, dont say a single negative thing to anyone, even if they offend you. Smile more than you frown. Count your blessings. Encourage someone. Give a hug, or hell--give a few hugs. Sing a song. Do a dance. Scream at the top of your lungs. Read a poem. Tell someone you love them. Thank someone just for being them. Talk to someone you usually wouldnt talk to. You may say to yourself--this is ridiculous, at first....

But by the end of the day, know you spent an entire day doing acts of LOVE. Know you spent an entire day doing things that not only made someone (or even more than one)'s day a bit brighter, but you will make yourself better.

The Beatles said it themselves... All we need is Love.